Boy or Girl?!?!

Before Justin and I were told the sex of the baby, plenty of people asked if we had a gender preference. I would say, "If we had to choose, we'd choose a girl since we already have two boys. But, three boys would be a ton of fun, too." Of course that was mostly just to cover my bases in case it was a boy, because I wasn't quite as non-chalant as I pretended to be. I badly wanted a girl!

I was surprised that when the sonographer pronounced the baby a boy at 16 weeks gestation, I just laughed. I wasn't disappointed at all. And soon after we were told that we were having our third boy, I was already getting attached to the idea, to Kai. So, when people would ask how I felt about having three boys, I would say, "I wanted a girl at first, but I think that now if they suddenly told me it was a girl, I would actually be disappointed."

I'd just really gotten into picturing my life with three boys. Three little guys wrestling in the playroom, comparing pictures of three little guys at the same age wearing the same hand-me-down outfit, three little guys dressed identically for professional photos, etc. I even got to picturing myself with three tall, grown, handsome young men who would (I hope!) still retain a bit of their "Mama's boys" personas and dote on Dear Old Mom just a little bit. I'd come to really, really love the idea of three sons. Of course there were times, looking at the little girls we hang around sometimes, or seeing girl clothes in the store, or hearing that another pregnant mom found out her baby was a girl that I'd wonder if I'd really be happier with a girl. I've always, always wanted a little girl.

The other day at my OBGYN appointment, the doctor was doing a sonogram to check the level of fluid around the baby. He asked, "Do you know if you're having a boy or girl?" I replied, "Yes, a boy." The doctor scanned around a little more, then asked, "Uhhh.... wait. What did you say you think you're having?!" I think my heart must have started racing a little. "A boy??" I repeated."Oh," he answered,"I thought I heard you say you thought you were having a girl. It's definitely a boy!"

And, without thinking, I quickly responded, "Geez, don't scare me like that!"

WHAT?!?! I mean... I did predict that I would be disappointed if I were to find out that Kai was actually a girl, but I guess I didn't even believe myself completely until this happened.

So, YES, I am really, really happy to be having another boy. NO, I wouldn't trade any of them for a girl. And no, I don't even feel the tug to try one more time for a girl. What a joy my boys are. I love my three sons! :)